Wednesday, October 20, 2010

this is for u

something keep on wandering in my head

couldnt let it go..

i dont know why..

i know its wrong

but not the 'wrong thing' that has brought me to this feeling

its just u!

cant let u go of my head

but it hurt much when i know that u're putting me away..

give me a chance to do things right

please..

i miss the joke that we used to share together

i miss the laugh that we always have

i miss u as my friend. a companion

a friend. yes. that's that all i need

i mean it!

Saturday, September 25, 2010

2 years

after 2 years..

i met u again..

that smile..

i will never forget..

T_T

sigh~



Tuesday, September 14, 2010

2 bulan 23 hari

salam..

lame dah tak menulis ni...
dah 2 bulan 23 hari aku jadi doctor..
ffuuhhh...byk pengalaman..
byk pengajaran..
:)
as u guys know, im in Hospital Sg Buloh,
currently in medical posting
yeaah!MEDICAL!
org kate medical paling busy..
i dont know, its unfair for me to say it so since ive never done other posting yet..
but as to describe medical posting, ill say it this way..

"medical posting is a posting that i need to wake up at least 5.30 am (paling lambat), need to be at ward before 6.45 am, need to cover at least 6 to 8 pts, but i penah jage 3 ward sorang for a week!! (but of course, all pts are stable), sleepless oncall night (as expected),a lot of proceduressss and clock out at 7pm (paling awal), if dpt balik pukul 6 tu rase nak buat sujud syukur"

haha..that is medical in HSB..
i dont know other posting or medical posting in other hospital..


but well..
ive learn a lot..
dulu tak tahu macam mana nak manage hyper/hypokalaemia pun..
sekarang, dah berani nak order dah...
lytic cocktail?
mist KCL?fast correct?
nak tak nak sume bende tu kene ade kat hujung jari..if tak tahu..
just call MO...
best thing in HSB, MO sume BESTTTT!!!cool habes~~

or in dengue case..
kat HSB ade ward dengue..
kene amik blood TDS ok! (3 times daily)
lepas amik kene reviewlepas review kene decide..nak increase fluid ke?
or nak reduce?ke nak maintain je...?
so far i belom buat ward dengue lagi..
tak nak bole takkk???
huhuhu

lepas tu kat HSB jugak ade ID (infectious diease) ward
most of the pts are RVD or TBadvantage duk HSB kiteorg dpt belajar byk pasal HIV..
ubat2 die..stavudin..lamivudin..neverapin..
ubat2 ade short form yg pelik..
contoh: stavudin (D4T) lamivudin (3TC)
pelik kan?
pastu kene tau CD4 ngan viral load count pt jugak..mule2 masuk ID ward memang blur..
nak set branula satu hal jugak..
lagi2 pt IVDU..
tapi best!bole practice byk!! :)
procedures pulak..
so far, ive done lumbar puncture..
pleural tap..
bone marrow aspiration..
ermm..tu je kot..
CVP lom lagi..pleural biopsy pn tgk je..
haisshh..byk lagi nak kene belajar nih!

i dapat ni mase nak dekat raya hari tu.. :)


dah 2 bulan 23 hari..
tapi still byk bende yg belum belaja..saya perlu menjadi lebih proactive!!!
viva dah nak dekat..!
aiyokk!!

kawan2 yg belum buat medical..
dont worry...
medical best!penat tapi byk sanagt belajar...
i tak suke medical, tapi medical did taught me a lot!

sape2 yg rase2 lepas ni nak buat medical, silalah bersedia mental dan physical..
in terms of knowledge, macam biasa,common things are common..
case2 yg admit biasenye stroke..hypertension urgency/emergency
hypoglycaemia
DKA
sepsis
CCF
MI
hepatic enceph..

kwn/adik2 medical student (if ade yg bace blog ni) bace la tajuk2 tu bile nak pro exam nnt ye.. :)

anyway ppl~wish me luck..
semoga perjalanan saye dan kawan2 lain sebagai HO ni dipermudahkan...
insyaAllah..

wassalam

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Langkah baru...

Salam...

Esok bermulalah satu episode baru..
Langkah ke alam baru..
Alam pekerjaan..
Dimana diri aku, masa aku bukan lagi untuk aku...
Tapi untuk pesakit2ku..untuk kebahagiaan kedua ibubapaku..dan untuk jaminan dunia dan akhirat..
Semoga cita2 menjadi doktor mukmin akan tercapai...

Buat sahabat2 MD UKM..
Semoga kt semua tabah,focus,sabar dan ikhlas...

Buat diri ku sendiri...
Semoga ini menjadi permulaan yang baru dan lebih baik..
Tiada apa lagi yang lebih penting drpd amanah besar ini..
Aku akan focus dan bekerja dgn bersungguh2..
Itu satu janji!

InsyaALLAH..redha Allah akan sentiasa bersama..

Gambate kudasai!

i wish..

How i wish i could tell u how i feel.....

How i wish u would understand.....

I miss u...
Always have...
Always will...